Frozen, Panicked and Scared

Frozen, panicked and scared,
I am stuck here
My hands can't grip
what is crumbling in my fingers
I can't hold my own weight any longer
My shoulders ache
and my legs shake
violently
Trembling, crying, cursing,
and with no control,
I look down at what lies beneath me
And suddenly I realize
my life
is not in my hands
And until I am safe,
until I am again on solid ground,
until I can surrender to stillness and calm
and until you are here
I am
frozen, panicked and scared.

-kb