Ten Feet Under

This seems to happen once a week
once again
I feel it welling up inside
tears swelling up inside
my brain's in overdrive
but I will slow it down
forget, suppress
and Lords of Dogtown
and the laughter
and the carelessness
smother my need to feel something
to think, to stress
the pure rawness of it all
is the only thing keeping my heavy eyes
from taking a break
I wish you loved me
but that's a choice I choose to make

You duck dive smooth
yeah, just like that
my heart is open water
cool and clear
but clouded here
this wave's the only one I fear
will take me ten feet under
a shark attack
a broken back
but the ride is worth the wait
the wave's about to break
I wish you loved me
but that's a chance I've got to take

I'm wearing all your t-shirts out
thank you
the green one fits me well
I'll paint a scene
from a happy dream
and we'll both pray for a swell
alaska's real
it's cold I hear
but I'll pretend it's fake
in my paradise
I know you love this heart you're going to break


-kb